Ok, so this past month has been a struggle for me. We started on Prometrium and had to wait 2 weeks before I had another blood test to see if it was working. During that time we went on with things like normal. I didn't feel a difference from the increase in hormones except that I am sleeping wonderfully; Jason would disagree. He says I became a bit more moody, but he handled it well.
After I had the blood draw I knew I'd have to wait awhile to get the results back. That week of waiting was probably one of my biggest falls from, and restore in hope with this whole process. Our sermon at church last week summed up this whole process so far for me. What I took from it was that God plants little seeds of hope in us. It is not up to us to determine when those seeds will grow and bloom; it's up to us to allow the seed to live in us and wait for God. While waiting we will encounter moments of fear, moments of despair, and ultimately we try to take things into our own hands and into our own calendar of time.
I realized that was me. In the span of a week I was feeling fear of this never working, loss of hope, and was beginning to try and form my own timeline of how long I was going to give this to work (remember, we are on the first month of this). After Sunday's message, I began to think about things differently and it's taking some work, but I'm beginning to view all of this differently. I've been talking with a friend who is going through her own struggles with pregnancy and it's helped having her ear. I've also realized that as much as I thought I had given full control of this situation to God, I hadn't, and I was trying to regain as much control as I could. I've once again let that control go, and when I start to freak out I just think of my little seed living in me and I know that God has it timed out.
So, the good news- the Prometrium is working! I went from a count of 5 last month to 21 this month!
The blah news- we're not pregnant yet...
BUT the hope is there, and it will all work out according to God's timeline, not ours.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
anniversary and doctors
Our 2nd anniversary was on Monday, but we celebrated this past weekend. Jason planned the whole thing and kept me surprised. He started out by handing me a card and the GPS which he'd programed with 'Anniversary 1-3'. I followed the directions on the card and the GPS took us to our locations. We ended up staying in a hotel at one of the state parks nearby. It was a nice place with views overlooking the lake...it would have been great to explore except for the 95+ degree temps that unfortunately limited the activities. So instead of hiking all day we came home and went to a Sounds game (Nashville's AAA baseball team) with Garrett and Megan. It was a fun, hot evening topped off with fireworks. Sunday was a typical day until I went for my surprise massage. :)
Jason says he loves planning these things and that he would do a better job than I would so I'm off the hook for planning next years! :) He was able to get a photo editing program which he's thrilled to have that he says is making editing much easier.
So Monday was our actual anniversary and we spent the evening at the 'girly doctor' as Jason puts it. We discussed the options for me since my progesterone levels came back low. In looking at my bloodwork, progesterone levels according to the textbook should be 10, fertility doctors like to see 15... mine was a 5. So needless to say, I am not making nearly enough of that hormone to support a pregnancy. My doctor said it's a luteal phase defect, fancy way to classify a progesterone shortage.
Our options were either a form of Clomid or Prometrium, a progesterone supplement. Both options would raise my levels, however there are risks of multiples with Clomid and that's not an option we wanted to have to face immediately. So, in talking with my doctor we decided to first try the Prometrium for a few months, if my levels do not increase we'll then try Clomid, if that doesn't work we'd then be sent to a fertility specialist, but we're not yet looking that far down the road.
The Prometrium is a bit trickier to take and is more expensive (thank goodness insurance covered), but I'll start it in a week or so and we'll see what happens.
*Jason's edit: Prometrium can also cause moodiness... but I'll take that over multiples any day!
Jason says he loves planning these things and that he would do a better job than I would so I'm off the hook for planning next years! :) He was able to get a photo editing program which he's thrilled to have that he says is making editing much easier.
So Monday was our actual anniversary and we spent the evening at the 'girly doctor' as Jason puts it. We discussed the options for me since my progesterone levels came back low. In looking at my bloodwork, progesterone levels according to the textbook should be 10, fertility doctors like to see 15... mine was a 5. So needless to say, I am not making nearly enough of that hormone to support a pregnancy. My doctor said it's a luteal phase defect, fancy way to classify a progesterone shortage.
Our options were either a form of Clomid or Prometrium, a progesterone supplement. Both options would raise my levels, however there are risks of multiples with Clomid and that's not an option we wanted to have to face immediately. So, in talking with my doctor we decided to first try the Prometrium for a few months, if my levels do not increase we'll then try Clomid, if that doesn't work we'd then be sent to a fertility specialist, but we're not yet looking that far down the road.
The Prometrium is a bit trickier to take and is more expensive (thank goodness insurance covered), but I'll start it in a week or so and we'll see what happens.
*Jason's edit: Prometrium can also cause moodiness... but I'll take that over multiples any day!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
hiccups..
So I hit a hiccup along the road of life today... a sort of minor Plan B moment...hiccups suck.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
rain, floods, and baby clothes?...
So, as you've probably read/heard Nashville is full of water. It began raining here Friday night/Sat morning and didn't stop until Sunday night. All said and done areas got 15 inches of rain (translated to snow that's 13 ft!!). Needless to say Nashville is now underwater.
Thankfully we are on a big hill and didn't get wet :) We have friends that did though- they are busy trying to quickly pull up floors, carpet, drywall, etc so the mold doesn't set in. The real kicker about all of this is that the majority of people affected don't have flood insurance because they don't live on a flood plain. They're calling this a 500 year flood.
The river finally crested, but is very slow to recede...one water plant is under water so Nashville is running off of 1 plant that had some minor flooding. We're on a water restriction to 'necessary water use only'...meaning we can drink, bathe, and cook. However, when told you're on a restriction people freak out (or just don't pay attention) so now we have excess use going to fill up bathtubs, fill up every container possible, and to washing clothes and cars. After being lucky enough to not lose power or flood, we may possibly be without water so we'll see how that goes. We have offers for showers though should we need it and I've already stocked up on water to drink/cook with (the IA floods taught me something!)
Onto other topics (and completely random ones at that)...I have now inherited about a gazillion sets of baby clothes...No, not pregnant yet, but I am now the baby clothes distributor. One of my client's moms, who has fostered kids for years, decided to clean house. So if you are in the need of baby clothes, will be in the need for baby clothes, or just like baby clothes let me know!! I have boys clothes ages 0-6mo and girls preemie-6mo as well as a couple over-the-shoulder slings, a shopping cart cover, assortment of sheets, blankets and towels, AND 4 sets of maternity scrub pants!
Thankfully we are on a big hill and didn't get wet :) We have friends that did though- they are busy trying to quickly pull up floors, carpet, drywall, etc so the mold doesn't set in. The real kicker about all of this is that the majority of people affected don't have flood insurance because they don't live on a flood plain. They're calling this a 500 year flood.
The river finally crested, but is very slow to recede...one water plant is under water so Nashville is running off of 1 plant that had some minor flooding. We're on a water restriction to 'necessary water use only'...meaning we can drink, bathe, and cook. However, when told you're on a restriction people freak out (or just don't pay attention) so now we have excess use going to fill up bathtubs, fill up every container possible, and to washing clothes and cars. After being lucky enough to not lose power or flood, we may possibly be without water so we'll see how that goes. We have offers for showers though should we need it and I've already stocked up on water to drink/cook with (the IA floods taught me something!)
Onto other topics (and completely random ones at that)...I have now inherited about a gazillion sets of baby clothes...No, not pregnant yet, but I am now the baby clothes distributor. One of my client's moms, who has fostered kids for years, decided to clean house. So if you are in the need of baby clothes, will be in the need for baby clothes, or just like baby clothes let me know!! I have boys clothes ages 0-6mo and girls preemie-6mo as well as a couple over-the-shoulder slings, a shopping cart cover, assortment of sheets, blankets and towels, AND 4 sets of maternity scrub pants!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Spring Break
So spring break is coming to a close...or what I like to call spring break is ending. I no longer get an actual spring break, but rather the time I took off during Jason's spring break is ending. It was actually a very eventful break...
We started by making a trip up to IA to see the family for Easter. It was a long 22 hours in the car (that's counting there and back) with the dogs, but everyone survived. The weather in IA was nice, 50s/60s and we were able to get outside, go fishing, try out the new remote-controlled boat on the pond, etc. Blue especially enjoyed the pond and took his turn at chasing the boat, geese and a bobber or two (hooks attached, thankfully none attached to him). Maizie enjoyed running around the pond and barking when Blue did, but she did not try her luck at swimming this trip. We were able to spend some time with my nieces as well (maybe I can get Jason to insert some pictures) taking in horseback riding lessons and softball practices. They loved the dogs and requested to go on multiple 'walks' with them.
Once back home we dove into house projects; re-painting areas that needed it, replacing light fixtures, patching holes in the ceiling that the builder decided to just leave and cover up with fluorescent lights, finishing woodworking projects, gardening... we got a lot done and it's nice to be able to cross some of those things off the to-do list.
Other than that, no news to tell...back to the swing of things next week. Jason just has a few more weeks of work-school left and a couple months of grad-school so we'll be counting down!! He has decided to walk in May, even though they don't graduate until August so if anyone wants to road trip up to cheer him on feel free! :)
We started by making a trip up to IA to see the family for Easter. It was a long 22 hours in the car (that's counting there and back) with the dogs, but everyone survived. The weather in IA was nice, 50s/60s and we were able to get outside, go fishing, try out the new remote-controlled boat on the pond, etc. Blue especially enjoyed the pond and took his turn at chasing the boat, geese and a bobber or two (hooks attached, thankfully none attached to him). Maizie enjoyed running around the pond and barking when Blue did, but she did not try her luck at swimming this trip. We were able to spend some time with my nieces as well (maybe I can get Jason to insert some pictures) taking in horseback riding lessons and softball practices. They loved the dogs and requested to go on multiple 'walks' with them.
Once back home we dove into house projects; re-painting areas that needed it, replacing light fixtures, patching holes in the ceiling that the builder decided to just leave and cover up with fluorescent lights, finishing woodworking projects, gardening... we got a lot done and it's nice to be able to cross some of those things off the to-do list.
Other than that, no news to tell...back to the swing of things next week. Jason just has a few more weeks of work-school left and a couple months of grad-school so we'll be counting down!! He has decided to walk in May, even though they don't graduate until August so if anyone wants to road trip up to cheer him on feel free! :)
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